You asked if something was wrong...

I've been living with low level pangs of misery for the past couple of days.

Thoughts of you remain close to the surface of my consciousness. Throughout the day they keep bubbling up... sometimes out of nowhere... reaching the surface of my everyday thought world. The bubbles leave this foam on the surface that I like to shape & mold into pleasing images. Frequently these images create an energizing sensation within my physical body, mostly down in the hara.

The combination of these corporal sensations and mental images create within me such an intense, pleasurable experience I just don't want to let go of. But I know I need to... for not to let go will quickly turn into painful torture knowing we cannot be together.